what a messed up mind

it's been long time not writing a letter, with pen on paper. And i think this is the first time i'm sending a real writing letter to a friend. don't curious, when i started to know how to write a letter, it's already is a e-world. not much chances for me to send a paper letter. well, this will be my first pos laju record, too. am feeling a little bit of excited.

However, i really confuse on what's the point of doing this stuff. am i chasing the girl, LM2? am i really just treat her like a normal girl friend? then how about the feeling on the kelisa? maybe i just thinking too much and messed up my mind. Well, should just keep it simple. i need life, i need friends...............in gender of girl.

i should stop all this nonsense and tidy up the mind before the brand new year coming. it's just two more months to go.....

shadow of a shadow

影子。它永远都是活在别人的生活里。不管那人好，坏。它都只有跟从，永远摆脱不掉。

可是可悲的是，有一个人不知不觉的竟成了某影子的影子。他，只有跟从影子，也摆脱不掉影子的主人。他只有活在别人的影子里。永远就被别人拖着走，无法活出自己。